Lately, I haven't been taking many photos for fun. I have a series in my head that I will be putting into action... eventually... but I am mostly just enjoying the freedom of NOT having a business and NOT having to take pictures at all times. The things you love can lose their charm when you do them for monetary gain. I shot my final wedding on the books last weekend. It was lovely and I really enjoyed it, I LOVE the bride and groom and their families... but I am glad to step away from that capacity. It just wasn't ME.
The actual writing I've been up to has been on a little bit of a hold as I delve into research and, of course, continue to read insane amounts of fiction. I have an addiction to fiction. I admit it freely and without shame. I have no plans of going into remission, or seeking help in the matter. Don't judge me.
Bear and I are trying to quit smoking. Again. We have these nifty little futuristic electronic cigarettes that give us a dose of nicotine without all the tar and other chemicals of a traditional cigarette. Bear is doing really well, having completely switched over. I still have two "real" cigarettes a day, one with morning coffee, one before bed. If I don't have a pack in my possession (it doesn't have to be ON my person, just so I know I can have my two smokes at home) I literally have a panic attack. So this addiction is hard to kick, but I am proud to have dropped from a pack-a-day smoker to a two-cigarettes-a-day-and-a-few-drags-if-nicotine-from-an-ecigarette smoker. It's not perfect, but it IS better.
I've also been trying to eat healthier. I have never had a large appetite. Ever. I am lucky if I remember to eat a meal in a day. So I have been making that one meal I typically eat something that is better for me, with more balance. I limit the amount of soda and crap I drink, I don't drink a lot of alcohol (sometimes I go through "I hate booze" phases, too), and I try to make myself walk places more often and do physical things. My energy level is up and my pants size is down two sizes (almost three)!
It's a LOT of change. But, it had to happen at some point. It's really hard to try to keep it all up at one time, although I keep telling myself I CAN do it and I WILL do it. I WILL meet my NaNoWriMo goal for 2012. I WILL create a comprehensive art photo essay and I WILL submit it for a gallery exhibition. I WILL stop smoking. I WILL lose the last 15 pounds I want to lose. Why? Because I CAN.
What things are you trying to change in your life? What are your goals for the year? Best of luck!